It's only the Beginning...

So here we go, plunging into the depths of a world not most many people know. Some tease by saying "It's a dangerous place to go." It could be, but all in all... It's something unique to its own accord.

My life is as what some say "inspirational" through all the things that occurred in my eighteen years of living. I can see how people be amazed by the fact that I am one of ten children. (All of which I'm half-related, but I claim each and every one of them fully.)

Often at times I see the sorrow flash in the eyes of all whom I tell when I say my biological father died when I was young. Or better yet, I sense the sympathy when I admit to being in foster care for a week, dragged between sunny central California and Memphis, so poor that I could have been homeless or when I say that I've had family cars stolen and burned. If you think it's not enough, try having the house shot at with everyone inside.

But that's nothing for me to be all "Debby Downer." Why? I've got things most people probably don't. Friends who have put endless smiles on my face and memories in the recesses of my mind. I've not only had the encouraging of my family, but of the adults who knew my hidden potential. Last but not least, I have the fire to drive me on through all that negative B.S.

So here you are, reading the words of someone who's been to hell and achieved greatness. Valedictorian. Prom queen... the only two things I can come up with right now. But there's so much more to me than that. This is MY tale- where all the magic happens. Are you up for the random adventures that'll soon unfold before your very eyes?

Good. Welcome to the Zoe State of Mind.

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  1. UnknownSeptember 11, 2013 at 6:04 PM

    Indeed, a rather dangerous place to venture forth to, but I'll dare myself to take such a gamble. It pains me to see you've had such a troubled past, but like you said, it's the past. There's nothing to gain from fretting over something you can't change. An arduous past can have ill effects on the will to thrive on, but keeping this flame ablaze extinguishes that lingering void and pushes you forward. Reading your post actually tugged at my heart tonight. Prior to stumbling across this danger zone, a few things from my past were erupting and raining down on my parade. Afterwards, I realized that it's the past, and found encouragement to kindle my own fire back to life and push through. This is the part where I should say "nice post", but someone who's slapped hell in the face deserves better. I look forward to the future adventures, even if I don't make it.

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  2. MBKoesterSeptember 15, 2013 at 4:46 PM

    I'm definitely willing to take the plunge...looking forward to following your journey!

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